Black coffee, heavy rain with light thunder, smooth Jazz music, and a hoodie are some of my ultimate favorite things to have when I'm relaxing and today I was blessed enough to have them all. As my girlfriend did yoga and our cat lay beside me purring in her sleep, I was able to take the time to reflect on how happy I am with the journey my life is taking me on. Last year I was at a bit of a dark place in my life as college, the disordered eating from my past, and anxiety began to take a toll on my life. I became very cynical and controlling. Over the past 3-4 months, I've been really focusing on the person I am and on who I am becoming. Was that person really living their lives to the fullest, spreading their happiness and ideas to others around them? No? That was when I knew something needed to change.
My girlfriend and I both sought counselling, spoke to our doctor about her depression and my anxiety, and ultimately made the, what seemed at that time crazy, decision to take the Fall semester off of school and spend it in England with my family.
After taking time for myself to reflect, I now feel so much more free. I feel like I'm on the right track again. And even though there is still work to do with my anxiety, I feel stronger and more able to handle the stresses of college when I return.
In celebration of this rediscovered free spirit of mine, I decided it was time to cut my hair short for the first time since last October. My girlfriend gave me a chin length bob that I think makes my facial features stand out so well. It feels messy and free. I love it. Thank you, Eve!
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